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When Demon Slayer Kimetsu no Yaiba crash landed in cinemas all over 2025 the world, it brought with it emotional back stories and a powerful seminar on anger, pain and the many ways the world can transform you into a monster. This Villain Diary is brought to you by the Upper Rank Three demon himself, the relentless and tragic Monster that we all love to hate, Rengoku’s killer and the master of Resilience himself, Akaza.
“Dear Weakling,
The world is filled of shi**y people, and I soon found out that this trait was in fact a contagious disease, and It didn’t take much time for me to catch it. The first Symptom of becoming a monster is the moment you slowly begin to lose faith in people and the universe above, some of us have been Unfortunate enough to see the worst of humanity early in life, and we can unknowingly begin to mirror the monsters we’ve run into across our lives. The second symptom is the moment we begin embracing the belief that it’s better to be a monster aswell; when you’ve gone on your knees to beg for mercy, prayed for goodness but continuously got given more pain, it becomes much to turn your back on everything pure and embrace that SHi**y mentality, i guess it feels safer to become that which you hate.
At first, I was proud to say the love I had for my father was my anchor in this world, ensuring he lived was my motivation, and I ignored the fact that I didn’t have much of that on my own. my purpose was tied to my father getting better and many of you may know what this feels like, finding your ultimate purpose within someone you love. when I looked around I could only seemed to find one blessing in my life, and there were no limits I wasn’t prepared to go for him – no person I wouldn’t steal from or fight in order to serve this purpose; I soon found this mentality was a down fall waiting to happen…because it was only temporary.
once the person you use as your anchor leaves your side, it can feel like the pain has tripled to compensate for the placeholder you had used to fill that void; when my father took his own life, all the anger and pain I felt before was amplified until it made me numb, so when love, peace and purpose finally found me again I was struck with the fear that that same grippling pain would only return ten times stronger. When I was saved by Koyuki and Keizo, I found myself suppressing that small glimmer of hope, cause I had convinced myself I would be forever locked out of that side of life, the happy side, the side that was overflowing with love and kindness, because how could I allow myself to feel these things when the world had dealt we me as if I wasn’t deserving of any of it.
But the thing about love is that it can be just as powerful as pain, its bloody hard headed and persistent, it will bang through the barriers you’ve put up and bound your broken heart back together, that’s the power Koyuki had over me.
When Koyuki and Keizo were taken from me, I spilled blood in the name of love, I murdered and tortured in the name of love and was forced to give up my own humanity in the name of love, and for hundreds of years I was content with being ‘the shi**y monster’, I even enjoyed it, because being numb and ravishing in pain was better than being in it…until I met that annoying kid Tanjiro.
That brat consistently reminded me of a past I did well to forget and annoyingly demonstrated all the strength and integrity of a man that had been through pain himself and refuse to let it tear his heart apart. Tanjiro had found a way to still keep his Honour intact, a man who refused to let the ugliness of the world turn him bitter, and no matter how hard I tried to poke and prod at this force field of integrity and faith, he would not shift ! And this frustrated me !!
eventually Tanjiro broke me, I guess ‘integrity’ can be contagious too; even as my head was severed from my body, I held onto my pain tightly like a bloody Security blanket, I realised I had used it to comfort my guilt for all the wrongs I’ve done in both lifetimes, but as soon as this comfort was taken away I was ambushed by floods of memories, of life, of loss and of love I had traded in for being a numb monster – and suddenly, it felt like the door that was once nailed shut had now been kicked wide open…and I could suddenly feel that other side of life again, the side that was warm and kind, still full of pain but bearable, as the warmth was here too, because Koyuki was there too.
And in that moment, as Koyuki held me tightly, I finally realized that if I could steal and murder Millions in the name of pain and love, then there was no reason I couldn’t heal, forgive and embrace peace in the name of love as well, and this didn’t make me weak…it just meant I was choosing not to let the world make me the monster”
#MadeByDyslexia✌︎ #PleaseMindAnyCreativeSpell #Don’tLetTheWorldMakeYouAMonster❤︎
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